Lets see, um I've changed, not going to lie about that. Don't know if it is for the good, or for the bad, but I guess thats just how life goes, right?
I love it here. I still don't have as many friends as I expected to have, but the friends that I do have are amazing, and I could not ask for anything more.
I do sometimes wish I was back home, but they say that that feeling never goes away. It's not like I despise home, it's just that I have experienced something more amazing than I ever thought possible, and changed, and I no longer am the little Emily that left Amarillo, Texas and got here and was scared to death. I don't want to go back to the perfect bubble that I lived in, where life was so good, and nothing was too hard. And I feel like if I go back, actually, I KNOW, that if I go back for good, I am going to be a major disappointment to many, and before you start getting frustrated with me, I will explain what I mean.
Let's see I'll use an example. Summer of '07 is kind of when me and Rebecca started changing, and it was wierd, because the person that was my best friend, and I totally loved like crazy, was slowly disappearing, the good thing was that I was there to watch her change, so it wasn't such a big shock as it could have been. But what I am saying is that I have changed, you may think you know who I am, because of who I was, and yes, part of that Emily is still in me, and always will be, but I'm not that same person. And when I come home, I know that everyone will probably be in the mindset that they will know how I am, but I have a feeling, I am going to disappoint a few.
I am happy though.
Anyways, sorry to Grandma and Grandpa, and Grandma that I haven't called. It just seems everyday goes by, and by the time I know it, it's the next week.
I move on Saturday, I am actually really bummed about it, but excited none the less. I love my next family also, but I love the family I have now. It gets old moving so much. :(
Let's see, um Winter Camp is this week, but I didn't go, so I am the only one here left in Hamar out of the Exchange Students, but it's been good, because I've been forced to communicate with other people. Hahaha.
Anyways, I think that's all.
Nothing too exciting. Next month we go to Oslo for a ski tournament. And April is EUROTOUR!!! Will be the TIME OF OUR LIVES!!!!
1 comment:
Emily, it's true you've changed. We all knew that going to Norway - or any other country - was going to change you. When life happens, we change. Yes, sometimes good and sometimes disappointing to those who know us. But we can't expected to just be like we were as when we were kids. What is important for you to know is that those who love you will still be there, regardless of who you are. I found that out 30 years ago. We're not perfect, God knows that. But he loves us anyway. I wonder how we as humans can be any different; but we can be different because we are human and we try to reason and understand what isn't ours to reason or understand. OK - I've babbled enough - we love you.
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